My Dream Tonight

I laid down and finished reading This Present Darkness tonight. I cried at the end knowing God presence is real and the books message really spoke to me. I then went to sleep and dreamt I was in my present house and there was a very bad storm. Simon was running around like a mad man like always and Sara opened the door to the garage. The wind almost sucked her out of the house, papers blew everywhere lightning struck. At that point I tried to turn on the light and realized we were in the dark because the electricity was off. I remember not being able to find Simon and panicking. In moments everything seemed fine but the electricity still was not on. I had to go to the bathroom in my dream so Simon and I were standing by a door in our current kitchen. I opened the door and there was a bathroom. I thought to myself in the dream that this was great to have a bathroom here but it didn't seem normal. I could barely see in and it looked like there was something in there and I got scared since it was so dark and in fear of Simon locking me in. The next thing I remember is waking up standing outside that bathroom door from a dream of being a motorcycle stunt rider. You know these guys who do the flips and such. I stood there for a moment worried about Simon and then I saw Sara climb into bed. (the bedroom in my dream was house layout exactly like ours but the room layout was different and messy) I tried to walk but could not really move but I noticed it was like I was on a motorcycle so I pretended to hit the gas while standing there. I shot into the air almost hitting the ceiling and bound into the room and into the bed. I asked Sara if she saw me fly into the room but she pretended to be asleep. I knew she could not be because it had only been seconds since I saw her lay down. Then I woke up for real very disoriented and scared to death. I tried to orient myself. I was on the same side of the bed as the dream but when I lifted my head it was back to reality.

I don't know what my dream means but God is trying to tell me something these days. I have not been living for him. I have had a hard time getting back to him and in light of the books I have been reading I feel that there is other power around. Before I met Sara I never slept with the TV off due to hearing voices and seeing figures sometime in our house in Texarkana. That all passed after I prayed through the house and got rid of some things that should not have been there. Tonight when praying I could not focus. I even herd a profanity in my mind and saw a little boy being slapped. Now some of you might think I am crazy and I could be but my life consist of a lot of fogginess. Things can go in my brain and leave in an instant and I never knew they were there. I go to rent a movie and lots of times I come home with one we have already seen. In my attempt to get closer to my Lord and Savior Jesus Christ I am starting this blog. I am committing to study Gods word more and attend church on a more regular basis.

I do pray often and I believe God has answered many of my prayers lately. So much so that I have to thank him for what he has done. but when It comes down to a serious deep prayer time I get the things mentioned above.

If anyone happens upon this pray for me. We live in a new house now and I need to come home when the family is gone and do some serious praying in our house.

Oh yeah back to the dream. I feel that in the dream things got very bad with the storm and my fear of being locked in the bathroom with something evil then I fell asleep and had the dream about flying on the motorcycles which was very nice. Then woke up back to "reality" and still could fly. It seems to me Better things are to come. It was the bad, the good, back to reality and the good was still there.